Ever feel like you’re never good enough? Even after you completely open yourself up, there has to be one thing that tears you down. Regardless whether it’s the pigment of my skin, color of my eyes, size of my breasts, or the stride of my walk, I will never feel good enough. I was involved in a car accident on st Patrick’s day that has changed me for the rest of my life. My self esteem is at an all time low. And it hurts.. To even think about how someone else looks at you, when you are trying your absolute best to look and feel great.. One person has managed to change me, and my old ways.. For the better. That person has also taught me many things, that I wish to never go through again.. My heart has never been this broken, never been so seperated. This person holds my heart, and without them, I feel so incomplete. I have never loved someone so much in my life. I have never trusted someone so much. I have never thought I could love as hard as I did. The sad part about it, is that this person was never mine. We never had a title, and everybody knew.. That we belonged together. But instead, the person got involved into a committed relationship…. Something I could never have. It ended horribly. The relationship, our friendship, our relationship.. I miss you so much, I love you with everything I have. As I’m writing this, tears are running down my face, as they once were when we were in the parking lot, both crying to each other. As they once were when we were in your living room, crying and holding each other. As they once were all those times in my grandmas parking lot. All those times we cried together, and all those times we laughed together, they were all worth it. If I could go back and change something, I wouldn’t. I fell in love with you. This is so cliche, but I never knew what love was until I met you. Until I spent days and nights at a time with you. I love you so much.. And who knows if you’ll ever be in my life again.. But remember that I was the one who loved you when you had nothing. I was the one who loved you after everything you put me through. I was the one trying to crawl to you, while I was on the ground, incapable of any type of movement. I was screaming your name, worrying not about myself, but about you. You were always first in my book. Always.